As I noted in my post from a few days ago, the fitness has been a bit on the decline the last 2 weeks due to work (although still keeping with eating well and staying lightly active). I went to the gym the other day for the first time in 2 weeks, and it was quite a challenge. I was lifting what I was about a month ago rather than what I had worked up to. It felt quite discouraging to revert that way, but at the same time, I made it there and completed my workout. I think part of the issue is that I have been very low on energy as of late as well. A few days ago, I went for a run and around mile 2 started getting dizzy and seeing spots. I walked the rest of the way as my body felt very fatigued. I do not think it was a physical reason why I was reacting this way as I had eaten dinner about an hour and half prior. I have been pretty low on energy in general.
Yesterday I went for another run, and the heat really got to me, and I only ran about 2 miles once again. I felt terrible that I couldn’t finish the run, as I know I have the ability (I ran a 10k a month ago and a 5 mile race just a few weeks ago), so I am wondering what is up. I could just be drained for work. I have been getting good sleep.
While I was mid-run yesterday, I thought, “why can’t I do this, this is bullshit, I have been doing this for months.” I felt defeated and confused. Then about a mile from my house, I was listening to the song “Be Here Now” by Robert Kelly. The song’s words just stuck with me and I started running again for about a quarter of a mile, and walked a bit, then ran about another 1/2 mile. Although it wasn’t the best run i’ve had, and I am a person who has a very difficult time accepting the defeat of a goal of mine, I started thinking about the big picture and the lyrics in the song and although not the best attitude either, felt “at least i’m out here, doing it”. Today is a new day, and after I clean my room and do some chores, I am heading back out to the street or to the gym. My energy levels aren’t super high, but I am going to do the best I can, and that is all we can ask our bodies to do for us, so let our minds do the rest.
SO – discouraging and failing moments will happen to you, it is inevitable. We cannot achieve greatness each time we step out of our doorsteps, but we can achieve our very best, and if we give ourselves the gift of that, the rest will follow. Here’s to a healthy mindset to saying “Screw giving up, push forth”. We each need to find what will propel us forward, so we don’t fall backwards.
